Candle Light

That night the wind was blowing really strong. Everyone was tucked into bed fast asleep. Unfortunately in one of the allies a little girl was there shivering. She had no shelter or enough clothes to keep her warm away from the cold. Lena was only 10, she ran away from the orphanage to look for her parents. Till today there was still no hope at all. The only closest memory she has left of her parents is her grandmamma whom had taken care of her till she was 7 and she passed away. All she had left was candles that her grandmamma left her, to her they were magical candles. Once they were lighted unimaginable things happen.

In her mind she was telling herself be strong don’t give up hope don’t give into the cold. It was so dark and the cold started to get colder and colder she couldn’t take it anymore. She had only 5 candles left she had to light up one of them so she would feel warm. When she did the whole alley was lighted up she could see a rainbow starting to appear. Butterflies flying around, flowers blooming and she felt so warm filled joy seeing such beauty. The light couldn’t last for long and went out after a few minutes. Then she felt cold again the wind was getting stronger. She picked the coat that she had and put it around her but still it felt really cold.

She couldn’t help but light another candle but this time something unimaginable really did happen. She saw her grandmamma in the flames and she just couldn’t believe her own eyes. And her grandmamma said “Its ok sweetie. It’s just me everything will be ok I promise”. Lena couldn’t stop blinking her eyes she reached out to touch her grandmamma.

“Grandmamma is that really you?” Lena said as tears started to fill her eyes.

“Yes baby its me.” Her grandmamma said smiling

The light was going off she started to light another hoping that her grandmamma wont disappear. She hurried and her grandmamma was still there the image was getting clearer. Lena said “Grandmamma please don’t leave me again”. “It’s okay Lena. I wont leave I’m going to be just right here.” 

Her eyelids were starting to feel heavy but she didn’t want to close her eyes. She was afraid when she did her grandmamma would disappear.

Then, she lighted more candles because she knew it was because of the cold she was falling asleep. When the last candle was lighted everything was just so bright she could see a tree up ahead with a swing right beneath it. Her grandmamma was calling out to her “Come on Lena. Let’s go everyone is waiting for us. We don’t want to be late.”

“But where are we going Grandmamma? What are we late for?”

“Just follow me Lena. You’ll like it come on.” Her grandmamma reached out for her.

“Give me your hand. You don’t have to suffer anymore. I promise you I will never let go of you again”

“Okay Grandmamma okay.” She took her Grandmamma hand and everything changed she didn’t feel cold anymore. She felt hope she felt so lively. She ran towards the swing with her Grandmamma and sat there swinging. As the wind was rustling through her hair she was at peace.

When dawn set in a man was walking by the alley and he saw a body of a little girl and said “Poor thing she was trying to keep warm with all those candles”. He bent down to check for a pulse but there was nothing “Dear God and it’s the eve of Christmas. She should be given a proper burial.” After that the man called for help and gave Lena the burial she deserved. The most important thing was that she didn’t have to suffer anymore. She was away for hunger, away from pain and away from cold. She was now with her grandmamma in someplace better and happy.

Confession of a teenage heart

When a heart tells us we really like someone, we wont stop thinking about it. Love is always strong sometimes its like a magnetic force longing to stick together for as long as it can hold. To tell a person that you like them is never easy maybe on a text or e-mail or letter seems like a good way to start. Face to face its different you get to see all types of emotion the only fear we have is rejection.

A heart  can only bare so little but willing to go the distance. We'll do whatever it takes to not let the truth come out but somehow we cant restrain ourselves. When the truth does comes out we feel scared, nervous or we'll be freaking out every single time we see the person. Under all that we feel relief in some way because its all out in the open. 

Adults say teenager's know nothing about love but who does? Mostly for teenagers its called puppy love, we cant predict whats going to happen in the future so we only enjoy the present. Being in love can be like magic because every single time we see that person we feel like there is butterflies flying in our stomach. seeing the smiles in there eyes really makes you feel like melting. Maybe its to soon to fall in love but its time to create mistakes and from those mistakes we can learn to be better. The hell with the future it is coming nearer and nearer but while waiting for it we should just enjoy.

Dumper or Dumpee

Okay here it is, in life everyone is given an opportunity to do whatever they please. From being happy, to moving on and many other examples but there’s this little thing that I choose to talk about today. It’s not exactly that little but this whole month there’s a lot of it that has been going around and that is either being the dumper or the dumpee. I’m sure no one likes to be the dumpee they rather be the dumper.

What I can say is that being the dumper may sound like it’s an easy job. Honestly to tell you the truth it’s not, well for me it’s not because when I’m the dumper my friends will go like….

Why did you even dump him? He’s such a sweet guy.

Or

Why did you even started a relationship with him when you know it’s not going to last long?

Or

Didn’t I tell you not to break his heart? He’s the only guy that I know that treats his girlfriends well.

And many many more trust me when it continues longer it’s irritating. Okay to break the news to you people have their own reasons to why they end the relationship. Some reasons are good some are bad. The good thing is that maybe they just didn’t suit each other so it didn’t last long and they end it earlier then endure it till god knows when. The bad thing is that you leave them for someone else such hypocrisy I might say. By being the dumper somehow its like were responsible for what happens to our ex’s and trust when you think you got everything under control that’s the time when they do unexpected things. So always be aware of what’s going on or not your going to be in deep shit.

As for being the dumpee GOD! That’s hard and whoever is going through that now honestly I know how you feel. For dumper’s they never felt what it’s like to be dumped and when they do they’ll realize how much it actually hurts. When they do it’s too late to even say sorry. Maybe being in a relationship that doesn’t have much connection makes it easy to just go our separate ways but just imagine those who have chemistry at the first sight. The most disappointing thing is when we know we have chemistry with that person but do they know there’s chemistry? We always need two hands to clap not one. Just when we thought that everything is just so great we get dumped and the world just tumbles.

To you the world seems like its crumbling and everyone around you will be like….

Are you ok? What happened?

Or

Why aren’t you telling me anything? I’m your best friend.

Or

Stop crying! You look like a freaking maniac.

Trust me that happens, well besides that being the dumpee was never easy and sometimes we just need time to absorb everything and for some it’s not easy especially our first loves. I use to talk to my mother about all of this after my first love and she told me the scariest thing of all which is that you will never forget your first love. At first I was afraid I didn’t understand it but as time passed I understood everything. Well to me maybe it’s because that is the first time we ever felt love and it made us feel special in everyway. We felt needed, loved, cared for and everything else in the world didn’t seem to matter. When the relationship ends it’s like we feel useless and not safe at all.

For some we need time to let things mend and we’d rather keep it to ourselves first then to let everyone know because the more you tell the more questions your going to have to answer. At that time it’s never a great solution because it’ll only hurts us more.

Life is said to be never easy that we have to go through all types of obstacles but it only makes us learn more. About the dumpee and dumper well if you’re the dumper do what you think is right for both sides and not be selfish about the decision. Do it for the greater good of both parties and don’t care about what people might say because they’re not in your shoes. For the dumpee’s well I know everything seems uneasy and impossible well its not all you need is time and nothing is impossible if you have the determination to try. Life is always the greatest gift that God has given to us and why should we waste it enjoy it. Have fun so what if they’re obstacles we can overcome anything if we just put our mind to it.

To the one’s who are in a relationship just enjoy the present don’t think about the past or the future. Just enjoy being in each other’s arms. Be sincere to yourself to your heart and everything will be just as magical. Well I’m afraid that’s all for now. See you later peeps.

Back to blogging

Well it feels like its been a year since I last wrote but it s only been a month I guess. Been busy studying because trials was gonna start soon. I can tell you that it definitely was like going through labor not that I experienced it before or what so ever but it has hard especially add math. My god it was like drilling my brains out. I'm planning to ace my English, Math and Science paper though hope I did well.

Apart from all that everything has been just okay. Didn't really go out during the Raya holidays stayed at home mostly. But I still had a last paper after the holidays which is accounts but I didn't really study. Instead i started reading story books again because of my mother telling how me good they were and they were too irresistible to resist. So I read about five books in less than a week and by Saturday I started studying again.

The paper was just okay. Been dying to write had a lot of ideas but whenever I forget to write them down I seem to forget all about it. I've been writing a lot of poems lately but I never did posted any maybe these few days I'll post them up. Anyways I got to go. Take care peeps.

The world????

What's happening around the world? Everything is just crumpled. We can barely find peace anywhere. Wars going on in other states or country's. People suffering from poverty. Children in Africa dies everyday because they suffer from hunger. Other's are suffering from natural disasters,  abuse, and many more. The earth is also suffering from green house effects and thinning of the ozone layer and illegal logging and all the pollution man kind has created.

The world is turning upside down especially the people. In this video it show the vulnerability of each person and what made them that way. Mostly its how people look down on them. Honestly I'm not going to say I haven't done it because I have and it was not right and I'm going to change myself. 

To every person out there that feels unappreciated, lonely, small or what so ever. Your not alone many others feel that way even I myself feel insecure sometimes. But there's something about life. Life is never an easy road to take but all of us are only given a chance with it. So the hell with it just enjoy life and whatever mistakes we've made there is no point crying over spilled milk just learn from it.

Girls I know sometimes when you into the mirror you ask yourself who am I. And maybe you think why am I fat or why cant I be pretty or why cant I look like her. In this world no one is ever perfect and those imperfections is what makes all of us special in our own way. And if you like a guy and he wants you to change yourself for him ask him to go to hell. There many fishes in the sea and if the guy likes you he would accept you for who you are. And who you are is someone special that no other person or girl can replace.

Guy's sorry to say this but your just as emotional as girls. You can act as macho as you want but deep down you guys are softer than marshmallow. Guy's you all tend to tune out your feelings all the time and you never want to talk bout it but one day when it reaches the limit its going to explode and you'll feel worst. But you yourselves think that your not worthy for anything after what you have done but the truth is when you feel not worthy of anything its when your worthy of something. 

Everyone has their own talent their own specialty and that makes each an everyone extraordinary but to achieve something that big is to believe. Nothing is impossible if you don't try you don't know. To be good at something is to do it all over and over again. When we learn from our mistakes it's when we grow up to be something. There is never a right time for anything so we have to jump for every opportunity before its to late. Life is something magnificient so we should enjoy what we have and never regret a day that passes by because there will always be a tomorrow.

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